Yes!! off to spain in less than 6 hours, is it really worth going to sleep?
See y'all when i get back!! xxx

A touch of exceptional

I literally haven blogged in a while only because i haven't had any energy, being ill sucks! Everything is Rosy at the minute, just working lots... pay day tomorrow :-) I totally cannot wait! This is the week leading up to the holiday, which i am very excited about, i still need to pack my bag. oops! I love it, i think that i have way too many cloths at the minute. Parties by the pool, that's what i am looking forward too :-) Sweet, post you later xxxx

It's true :-)

Now that i have a moment to myself i can gladly make a blog. Yesterday i have no idea what i did? pretty much just did nothing i think. Today we went to Eleanor's sports day where she came second in the running race :) We were glad the weather was okay for the morning. Nan and Steve came to see her even though Steve has had a hip replacement. We went back to their house and had a lovely dinner yummy, eggy bread :-) Nicer than it sounds honest. We finished there around 2ish after reminiscing old school memories :-) i like it! I am really looking forward to tomorrow, a day with the girls :P SWEET!!

To do list:

• Enjoy time of in the summer.
• Have more time with the girls.
• Get birthday presents.
• Get a camera.
• Get results.
• Have my first day at college.
• Fall in love.

A simple story

Today has been really good. I actually got up early for a change :-) I went to see Steven who has been putting many hours in at work recently, we watched a film 'the book of love'!. We then decided to mission it to McDonald's, i love food! After which we came home and i met his grandparents, i could put money on the fact they won't like me. Mom had her hospital appointment today and wont tell me what was said. Dad went to the shops to get us some yummy snacks :P i will be fat, one of these days! I have finally cleaned my room after a five day agonising attempt. Now i am very tired so will blog some more when things happen. Oh yeah and Steven brought me a really nice jumper :-) haha it is lovely, so thought full of him he knows i am always cold :-) Good Night Blogger's xxx

Fuck Sake

Today i went to the funeral. It was so sad, one of the worst i have been too. I also went to work at 5 i am so tired. McDonald's afterwards, i am so unhealthy. I can't remember the last time i saw or spoke to Steven. Sometimes you give people exactly what they want and they will always manage to throw it back in your face. Call you the name of a person you hate, then not apologise. Today i realised that life is far too short for people to complain. Today i saw my aunt and cousins who i haven't spoken to for six years, and i thought that life was too short too ignore them, so i braved it. I told her exactly who i was, and too my surprise she hugged me and started crying in the middle of my shift. I wanted to be the bigger person, i wanted to be brave, i wanted to face the world. i wanted someone to tell, i wanted someone to listen, i wanted someone to care enough to listen to my story while i was telling them, but i guess you can't have your cake and eat it right? I would really like to catch up with my friends sometime. I am actually so sad right now, sitting around for the phone to go, or to get a message, why do people always leave me hanging? I will give it to at least one in the morning, even though i have to get up at 7 in the morning, i would do it for him. Fuck it i am going to bed no one gives a shit to ask, i guess i will climb the wooden hill alone to a family that are well in to the land of nod! Good night xxx

Jess

Sorry that i haven't kept this up, it's not even because i lack the time now it is because i lack the effort. I am loving this life. Today i told my mom and i think it went down okay. I love him. I am so grateful for everything in my life at the moment i never want it too end. Nothing is really going on at the minute, Jessica is doing really well at school and has really come out of her shell now that i have left school. She no longer lives in the shadow of me nor is she 'becky's little sister' she is Jessica Hill her own person which i love. Beauty sleep calls, Good Night :-) xxx

Ironically

Perfect...

Doesn't my baby look smart? This is the only picture that we had together all night :-) and i love it! Thank you kim. Plus Kim i hope you dont mind i used your photos on here because i dont have any.

This week has been very good. Going into college for the tester week in a way i like how it has now finished, lye in here i come!! :-) It has been a memorable week for me. I have changed. Ready for college and the challenges that live is guaranteed to throw at me. Yesterday i brought a white dress for summer, now it signifies something of a darker light. Sometimes it hurts. I would gladly do it again :-) which makes me laugh. Recently i have seen more of Steven while now seeing him really at all which says a lot. College is already opening up so many different opportunities, excitement is something that runs through my veins. This weekend i am working but am hopeing to catch up with some people. I am currently looking after Eleanor, while dad is at work, mom is at the hospital, jessica is shopping away with nan so all fun! Ellie is just so messy :-) This next week i have nothing planned i dont think so yeah fun stuff here are some more pictures from prom! xx

Prom (L) xxx

That last one was like a really long post so yeah basically we had PROM yesterday. It was amazing! seeing everyone all dressed up meant the world to me. I loved it. Dancing all night long was so spectacular. Words speak 1,000 words so i will let them do the talking. Enjoy!!

I will upload more photos when i have them :-) xxx

To love, let there be love.

It is too hot for me. Now that you have gone away i can come out of my shell and breath. Why did i have to get involved in this thing called love. It is complicated and means more than my words care to explain. Although i truly enjoy it, i sometimes question my own values. In the past my relationships have never been straight forward. I don't want to look in the past, i want to stride a head in to the future. I am constantly thinking of bad things which is never attractive. If i could talk to my boy then i would, but the truth is he is no where to be found. And the truth hurts. Drama in my life is something i would like to avoid at all costs. I would like some of the simplest things, things that are free and leave an ever lasting mark upon us. Like Love and happiness, combined can be the most magical spell of all. (magic fools even the cleverest of people?). I 'love' many things, and i certainly love life. My Life. To the extent that sometimes i believe i was born for a reason.

My baby, whom i do love, and although i constantly seem to be in two opposite minds, he is the one thing i would never question: to see someone who is what they say they are makes a remarkable change to my journey, to meet someone who cares enough about you to love you and cherish you, keep you happy and would never do anything to hurt you means that they deserves my attention.

The sun has gone behind the clouds but still leaves it's mark upon the earn. It allows all things to live and to thrive. The sun is a giant star that doesn't shine at night. It allows light on earth to shine on yours and his face. To see, let there be light. To love, let there be love.

Prom prom prom so erm yeah PROM!!!!

well yesterday i did almost nothing. I went into to school in the morning (again) to try and sort out the prom to be told it was already sorted. I then braved a walk to Stevens house which was fun the basically ended up lying in bed with Steven for the best part of five hours how does that happen? Then we went to Allan's BBQ the weather was lovely for it and England finally won a game! SCORE!! I went home and pretty much went straight to bed. Then today i really didn't feel very well but any way i went to get some hair dye a new top for work on Sunday new trousers and me and mom decided we would just wonder on down to the prom venue and it is a good job we did. We got there and the lady told us that pretty much nothing had been sorted. So i had to tell her where we wanted the tables, how many to a table, what time the DJ was getting there and how long it will take him to set up, what food to have where that was going, if we had to bring a computer of our own to then put a memory stick in, how the screen works, and i even asked about the drinks on arrival to see if it was possible. The woman there said that she could do us a deal, if we had a look at how much money was left in the funds she could put a drink on for everyone. We had near enough £100 left so i said go for it, it would be a nice touch for everyone. I just hope everyone likes it, to be honest i am kind of worried that nobody will like it and everything will go wrong but my friends will be there and make the night worth while. We had to go into school as well to work out funds, complicated seems as the lady in the office wasn't in i was like 'just our look'. Now that everything is sorted, Steven has a suit i have a dress, the venue is lovely. We can just hope that the weather will be nice, i think it just makes it that little bit nicer lol. yeah i am going to bed now so good night :D