Prom (L) xxx

That last one was like a really long post so yeah basically we had PROM yesterday. It was amazing! seeing everyone all dressed up meant the world to me. I loved it. Dancing all night long was so spectacular. Words speak 1,000 words so i will let them do the talking. Enjoy!!

I will upload more photos when i have them :-) xxx

To love, let there be love.

It is too hot for me. Now that you have gone away i can come out of my shell and breath. Why did i have to get involved in this thing called love. It is complicated and means more than my words care to explain. Although i truly enjoy it, i sometimes question my own values. In the past my relationships have never been straight forward. I don't want to look in the past, i want to stride a head in to the future. I am constantly thinking of bad things which is never attractive. If i could talk to my boy then i would, but the truth is he is no where to be found. And the truth hurts. Drama in my life is something i would like to avoid at all costs. I would like some of the simplest things, things that are free and leave an ever lasting mark upon us. Like Love and happiness, combined can be the most magical spell of all. (magic fools even the cleverest of people?). I 'love' many things, and i certainly love life. My Life. To the extent that sometimes i believe i was born for a reason.

My baby, whom i do love, and although i constantly seem to be in two opposite minds, he is the one thing i would never question: to see someone who is what they say they are makes a remarkable change to my journey, to meet someone who cares enough about you to love you and cherish you, keep you happy and would never do anything to hurt you means that they deserves my attention.

The sun has gone behind the clouds but still leaves it's mark upon the earn. It allows all things to live and to thrive. The sun is a giant star that doesn't shine at night. It allows light on earth to shine on yours and his face. To see, let there be light. To love, let there be love.

Prom prom prom so erm yeah PROM!!!!

well yesterday i did almost nothing. I went into to school in the morning (again) to try and sort out the prom to be told it was already sorted. I then braved a walk to Stevens house which was fun the basically ended up lying in bed with Steven for the best part of five hours how does that happen? Then we went to Allan's BBQ the weather was lovely for it and England finally won a game! SCORE!! I went home and pretty much went straight to bed. Then today i really didn't feel very well but any way i went to get some hair dye a new top for work on Sunday new trousers and me and mom decided we would just wonder on down to the prom venue and it is a good job we did. We got there and the lady told us that pretty much nothing had been sorted. So i had to tell her where we wanted the tables, how many to a table, what time the DJ was getting there and how long it will take him to set up, what food to have where that was going, if we had to bring a computer of our own to then put a memory stick in, how the screen works, and i even asked about the drinks on arrival to see if it was possible. The woman there said that she could do us a deal, if we had a look at how much money was left in the funds she could put a drink on for everyone. We had near enough £100 left so i said go for it, it would be a nice touch for everyone. I just hope everyone likes it, to be honest i am kind of worried that nobody will like it and everything will go wrong but my friends will be there and make the night worth while. We had to go into school as well to work out funds, complicated seems as the lady in the office wasn't in i was like 'just our look'. Now that everything is sorted, Steven has a suit i have a dress, the venue is lovely. We can just hope that the weather will be nice, i think it just makes it that little bit nicer lol. yeah i am going to bed now so good night :D

such a mommies boy!

Kim's birthday meal was nice. I kind of showed me how certain people are still childish and how people grown apart. Although saying that i really did have a nice time, i love how everyone gets dressed up and looks swish ;)

HAW?

remember that? lol

I love my girl Kim Yau i hope you had a nice birthday meal, i had a good time.

Today i have been shopping with my lovely Nanny ice cream who brought herself some lovely things whilst also buying me a new dress and some shoes :-) SWEET! it was really nice spending some quality time with her for once. After this we went to Frankie and Bennie's yummy! The limo is now sorted thank god, also my mom is going to uni and Steven sorted out his suit after having a massive stress, bring on tomorrow :-)

NIGHT NIGHT xxxx

The rise and fall of the unknown

Okay so Friday night was amazing!!! We all had so much fun and it was nice sitting outside talking with everyone, with Steven sitting next to me both in our comfy jumpers :-) I LOVE IT!! Then on Saturday another party, party, party! Ellie's birthday where she was the big 6! We had an awesome time, then everyone round here the London crew. Steven started his first job 11-6? In the evening me and Jessica went to bed before everyone else because we were like really tired. Then we woke up and basically spent the day in the garden sipping tea! Nice. We went up town for a little bit today (Steven worked 9-11) then came home everyone went home and mom and dad and Jess and Ellie went out so i tided the mess that everyone had left. Honestly if i kept this up everyday i wouldn't have to write so much. An eventful week ahead i will keep you posted :-) NIGHT xxxx

50/50

I don't know if i should laugh or cry. Today seems that much darker than before, you know just when things pick up the shit will hits the fan and reality kicks in hard. I hate shouting. The lord knows i hate shouting, it sends alarm bells ringing in my head telling me to run away and leave it behind. I know that sometimes running away from things never helps, to be brave you have to face up to them. Courage is something that lye's deep within your soul and swims through you veins happy to strike at any time. I am a Coward. I face nothing. Being who i want to be leads me to the wrong places. What a way to ruin my day. Sadness and crying are two things that i am not proud of, i think it shows weakness. Together they mean problem. What if i had shut my mouth, what if he wasn't standing there, what if she wasn't being her usually clever self, no of it would have happened. Oh the joys oh felling totally pointless. On a more brighter not i had my dress fitting today and my nan came to see me in it, bless her 'becky, how do i delete a photo?' 'go down' 'i have' 'a bit more' 'OH! i see' :-) then sitting in the garden talking a about life. Going to a peer mentoring/ learning mentors conference which was lovely. I really enjoyed myself there. Then coming home (blah!) then going out for a meal with the family from Australia, lovely again then coming home. I need to change my sheets before the guests come tomorrow, oh the joys :-)

I AM FINE

Absolutely fine. Today has been another average day. Looking after Imogen walking round the shops and everyone staring. Yesterday me and Steven wondered into Wolverhampton. I am so okay, trying not to be pissed of, it's not a nice quality. BACK then i believed you, but now i don't need. I brought a cute dress for this weekend, bring on the London crew and the fun. xx

Oh oh oh ohohoh

Today ermm well i had my science exam, just about to go in i had a moment with nessa

'you cant do this now you have an exam'

'I KNOW!'

I hope it went okay.

my bag needs cleaning so see you xxxx

Would you listen to yourself

Rebecca Hill is so glad she has finally left school, plus everything is running smooth. My amazing boyfriend, who i love very much, has decided it is amount time we got out of telford to have an adventure :-) So of course i went for that, plus i have decided to buy him some lovely clothes for some up coming events. Yes! Everything is good, work experience with photographers, job, boyfriend, family sweet as. Today i have been revising yet again, in between seeing the lovely uncle Nick who celebrated his birthday today. Jess made him the lovely cake yummy! We also went to watch Ellie swimming and she is the best in the group (by far) i love everything. Can't wait to catch up with everyone. Good luck every year 11 student for this next week of exams ahead, it is going to be a tough one :-) Good Night xxxx

why do we fall? so we can get back up again :]

I can honestly say i have been revising my ass of, in between watching quite a lot of rubbish on TV and getting distracted on the computer but never the less revision is the talk of the day, i am pretty tired. I like this, summer time, i like you. Night Night.

Oh

P.S Kim face if you need to talk at any time i am just a phone call away, this week has been crazy so when the exams are over we can catch up if you like :-)

Night xxx

W to the EEK

This past week has been so very good! I have just really been busy, which is why i have failed to blog for a while. So i figured if i went through my week it is as good as :)

Monday -
I went to watch some films and spend some time with Steven (think i blogged about that but not sure)

Tuesday -
It was supposed to be a family day but if i remember right the weather was really rubbish. i loaded all of the CD'S to the computer ( i am also pretty sure i wrote about that so... yeah :] )

Wednesday -
Wednesday was a really sweet sour day for me. I was asked out by both Nessa and Kim, however it was already arranged to spend a day with the family, we went for a meal at the four crosses and generally just spent some time together. Then after getting back in the evening i decided to ring Nessa and ask her if she still wanted to go to the cinema, so we did. We had such a great laugh from pretty much the moment that Nessa stepped out of the car in them huge heels making me feel ever smaller. The ques changed and me and Nessa got confused. Quin in the wrong places shouting out when everyone could hear, causing friction between boys and their girlfriends lmao. Shouting in the actual cinema going to the toilet in the middle of it all, speaking of middle... pretending to spill drinks so that we sat away from these girls that were looking at us. Then after watching Sex and the City 2, which was amazing as ever i really wish i had just a slice of the cake they have. Although i am very happy with everything at the moment. Any way we went to McDonald's for ice-cream and just talked until like nine, the weather was so lovely it was just lovely.

Thursday -
I decided for a clear mind i would clear out all of my room, everything had to get clean. However i didn't realise that in the evening i would be looking after Ellie! she was such a monkey and ended up falling asleep in my bed along with all of my clothes that needed to go away. Finally i finishing cleaning all i could at sometime after one...

Friday -
... I woke up at 7.30am tired :-) I finished tiding and decided to have a nice day out with Steven. I made a picnic for the both of us and then headed to Iron Bridge. We spend the whole day just sitting and chilling and just talking, it's just so nice. I love having the freedom. I had the dentist at four so it was short lived but then Steven came back to mine to talk some more and have tea. Did i mention i stood on glass, sometimes i think it just had to be me, lol. Then tonight i decided to ring Nessa to have a long talks about everything we could, it was good to talk some more, you make me laugh Nessa, lol. xxx

So yeah pretty much my week on a plate for you, i am rather tired now, tomorrow it will be revise revise revise, well that's the plan any way. Night, Night xxx

OMG, it's the first of June i didn't even realised until just know :-) YAY!

Sweet

Yesterday was really nice i went to a job interview wish i hope went okay. Then went over to Stevens to watch some films and it was really nice. Today i have simply decided to to upload all of the CD's in the house to itunes in the hope that dad will get ride of the god awful stereo and we can get an ipod classic and a huge docking station that's the plan any way it just takes a lot of time. Tomorrow we're of for a meal with the whole family should be great. :p xx