Tuesday 30th June 2009

Typical Tuesday, apart from the stuffy weather. Everyone is really looking forward to the end of school and i have a busy couple of years coming up... erm i mean weeks :-) Jo's weeding is soon, almost to soon in all honesty yet we are all excited about it, cant wait. After a family row on Sunday, the hilly house hold are really pulling together and keeping there promises which is always nice i have just finished spending £15 on songs for my ipod oops!! anyhow till next time :D xoxo

In LOVE with all of these, its kinda what i would like in the future xoxo

I Love Friday's x

Wow totally awesome day, really enjoyed it for some reason. The weather has been rather rubbish though and my hair was incredibly wet for last lesson. Then nothing much has happen just chilling, feeling sick, eating pizza and chips, Dr pepper (pear cider yum!) watching big mommas house about to eat some chocolate, talk about over indulgence. Just want to mention that Joshua is amazing and is very good at keeping promises even at last minute with risks. Love everyone peace out xxxxx =]

Frankie & Benny's

What a day to begin with. Rolling on up to Kim's house to have the pleasure of, not only Kim's, but Connors presence too. It was great just talking and laughing. Then a few unexpected texts from josh and, hey presto, he was at Kim's too. It was really nice getting ready around the lads, doing hair, make-up and getting dressed (in another room :D) even thought we were ready like a hour before 8, oh well. Andrew was so funny as well, and sweet. Then we headed down to Frankie and Benny's to meet everyone (Shelby, Matt, Vanessa, Kelly, me, Joshua, Kim, Connor and Laura or Lauren(SHIT!!)) It was cool all of us and we felt a lot older and more independent. I hope Kim liked all of her presents, lol love you loads baby girl :) xoxo




(Will add more photos when Nessa uploads them! :D)

You Darn right it's Good (L)

Summary

Monday - hair cut and the girls youth.

Tuesday - business after school then the youth.

Wednesday - missed after school club (canceled) looked after Ellie as dad was working and mom was out, watched many different films and had the pleasure of putting her to bed, oh the joy!

Thursday - it bloody rained so i shared Joshua's coat to keep my hair dry ;)I also dived for a keyboard?? guess i need help. Then we went to see nan and Steve and after decided i should invest in a kick ass dress for Kim's party.

Friday - wet myself with excitement because i realise that the party is tomorrow, also remembered that Eleanor is the BIG 5 today and woke up very early to watch her little face as she opened each individual gift with such care. Tonight we also had a party, for Eleanor of course, and some how i ended up on vodka every time?! Jo was the last to leave and we all had a great day... success.

I guess x

Time is a fail. There is not much left and every second we are are slowly slipping away. Truth be told i am worried. A continues reminder of things out of reach, things that we can never get, which is a shame. My mind is full of hope for people and life. I am sitting here, the hot sun burning holes in my sides. The bright blue sky against the green of the trees is, beautiful. A tweet from the tiny birds that glide in the clear sky every now and then. The wind, refreshing, every time it is most needed, and i catch the smell of the laundry hanging and floating on the line.
Evey now and then a green fly or two wonder around and land softly besides me, or on me. I feel the burn begin at the very back of my throat, a sting almost, a reminder of the thirst i hate to feel. The sun goes away for no more that five seconds and a small sigh of relief escapes my mouth. A constant frown sticks to my face like glue due to the brightness that effects my condition. The airplanes zoom past over head in neat formation, that time of the year again where most families head on down to cosford air show. Time is running out and im late...so late. I need to get ready in time, Glastonbury here i come. :)

The start of many... i wrote the start of my story?!

My story x

Standing on the sloppy grass, while listening to the silent screams of nature as the rain pounded the floor, heavy and cold. Under his hood, a gently kiss for reassurance and we are off. The water hit hard but we continue to walk, interlocked and together. Now they are running. Inside they scream, off with the umbrella. So i wear his comfy coat that lies messily around my frame to keep me warm and dry. We skidded round the corner and shimmed up the steps to shy away from the damp, and there we stood. My hands, taken in his. He lent so close i could feel his cooling breath whisper to my cheek. I let it melt me, every single part of me. I let it flood from the inside out, hitting all things it came into contact with, leaving me feeling weak and breathless. It tingled at my finger tips. I moved in to him, wanting. His lips were cold, but soft and full of intent.I let them linger on mine for a while, working slowing with him. I could feel the honey pass from his mouth to mine, i felt it trickle down my neck and then it was there dancing around in my head. A sense of relief, to know that he was mine. Stunned motionlessly in his kiss, i smiled at that thought and he smiled back, his warm smile that i loved so much. It was at that moment i realised he would always be there, mine forever. x

A cup of tea,,, yeah please (L)

SUNDAY 7th JUNE

I went up the with the beautiful Vanessa to retrieve Kim's birthday presents i hope she will like them?! :D i tripped over a bloody kids lying on the floor in asda and Nessa has told everyone i kicked the poor kid thanks love!! We also met with Joshua, after me and him were up till 2.30, the night/morning, before talking about us. 'love' a word that none of us had touched upon since now, because i just have to mean it, which i do. He told me that he loved me in his own way, and i said it to but not in a cheesy way, like i said 'despite what you may think i do love you very much and i really appreciate you sticking around to get to know me x' kinda way :D he then said it again i was like over the moon, i really feel it this this time you know? just something there that i cant put my finger on i just want him to be around for forever and a day, which he has reassured me he will be (L)

MONDAY 8th JUNE

Ellie says : stinky josh together with Becky :) shampoo is in Joshua's hair?! stinky both. 'are you on msn' bless her, what a tot! Today has been, well erm bliss! A nice start to the morning, silly waste of time P.E then a dinner where that stupid lad, forgotten his name, was being a complete Muppet, damn it and our years 10 friends continue to bully the little brat that deserves every minute he gets, even if i do feel bad for a little bit. Then science... there i am sure i did no work, oops! :/ After that, at the end of the day i was told to get a room, many different times by many different people?! that includes Mr Enoch :O o well! Then home time, late, i slid into the car as swift as you like and drove home to play the 'momma' role while she has gone to see take that. That included cleaning :( cooking kinda, i set the bloody kitchen on fire damn it! Now i am bathing the lovely Ellie, she is sitting there in the bath having mindless conversations to herself which is adorable, xx. So yeah gonna huddle round the fire now in a desperate attempt to get warm, a cuppa tea will help so i am off, peace out :D X

Living for today i guess x

A very important man once said, no wait a very important God, Buddha, once said

'Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.



I find this fact so interesting and true, i love Buddha! You dont know what you got till its gone, we take so many things for granted you know?! Guys we got to start living in the present, i refuse to talk about college, or any form of future. Like we need to enjoy now, don't you think? x



And as for today, a Saturday morning, i woke a 7.00AM to be at Morrison's for 8.00AM. On the tills and backpacking to raise money for breast cancer/British heart foundation/cancer research UK. Between me and Jessica we raised £200.00 which i am really proud of :D Something productive at last, and i met some really friendly people. My nan paid for breakfast, lunch, a new umbrella and some body spray to say thank you. No... thank you nan for letting us spend a tiring yet interesting day at work with you, we got an in site into your life lol x







I hope that they can save people and find a way to cure them. So many people suffer each year it is tragic. I am so sorry for everyone out there that has suffered in any way shape or form due to these terrible diseases, To the future x



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Today... sudden and unexpected :D

Well, turned up at school to have a conversation about hair cuts?! Everyone was like your hair looks dif?! then my boy turned up... with a bloody hair cut!! strange or what lol. Here is a picture of me and josh after we had tried to skim some stones in the lake, there were these kids like ages 4 or 5ish on the other side of the lake and we were like 'where are the bloody parents?' we were seriously considering running over to them so they didn't drown.




Me and the lovely nessa up town, just shopping and looking around for kims presents...shhh! ;) where we had a phone call from joshua saying 'becky i have skated to your house, where the fuck are you' bless him, its so sweet. the weather really held out and we walked around in our dresses, me and ness i mean not joshua!



Tuesday at the youth, was kick ass just me and josh some alone time on some grass. That sounds wrong :( :) LOL




This next 1 is of the sun set tuesday this week. Me and my dad pulled over the hill and i said 'dad that would make a great picture' so he turned the car around and pulled into this slot, where i got out of the car to take a photo. It was a real farther, daughter moment. love him so much, by the way the picture is crap, the zoom bottom broke after dropping it... more that once :O



Then tonight, i went to the hot air balloons to watch nan and Steve fly away it was amazing to see but also frighting, i think nan shit herself!! :D



The air going in, against the sun set, amazing!



The fire........



Oh my, this photo took soooo long to take, alot of 'move you finder jess, a little left, no a little right... way too much' lmao (L)



Today has been great i loved every minute however am overly excited about watching shaun of the dead tomorrow lmao. okay all, night night. xoxo

Todays the the day... no wait its not :D

This past week has been so nice some nice weather, at last. Though it has been colder today so i will wear trousers tomorrow. Me and by boy are just fine... better than ever and i feel he is really trying to understand the way i work bless him :D exactly how i like it. everyone has been really chatty this week and strangely enough i fit in. times are good there really is nothing to complain about. Exams this week grrr... they have gone better that i thought, even though they would still a fail, epic fail! lmao :D My dad lost his job officially today, but there is a glint of hope as he may be getting a manger role even if he does not want it! i have been working on some designs for a new school uniform, what do you think? its not much but trying to revise at the same time is hard. I am having a really nice msn conversation with James myatt he is like 18 or something like that and giving really good advice, they are a nice family.

I need to go... hunger and trying to tell Megan she is better that a flasher x

P.S The new uniform as i see it :D :D