Number 7 - Deserving Your Dream??!!

The number 7... what is it about that number everyone claims it to be luck... 7 is the number of days in which the world was made, 7 colours in a beautiful rainbow, however what about it being unlucky... 7 deadly sins, 7 the very devil himself... 7 is just a number, just a number that has been drilled into our heads as being lucky! what do you think?? what if this happened to often, that if we are told the same thing over and over would we start to believe it?? or simply turn against it?? i think this may be a question i have always wanted to know the answer to. Do you have to hear it, or feel it to believe it? I don't know weather to trust you?! If you tell me you love be would i believe it?? or do i have to feel it?? or is it both. Will i get my heart broken again if i put myself out there, will your heart break. Who cares what anyone else says i don't care. Do you?? did i break your heart because if i did i apologise and i wish that i can make it all better. Am i around you to much, you want me to take a step back to to analyse this sticky situation. Do you not like the thought? you make me feel special in my only little way, sometimes the way you smile, laugh or even speak! i find it hard to cope if i see you doing it to someone else i feel the anger and confusion build up inside me??! WHY?! I miss you when you are gone, i wonder where you are, i have to know... i just wonna be by your side... just there!! I feel your glaze when you are there and it makes me feel warm, even if it is for seconds! am i knocking down your door for rejection! I keep telling myself to let go... it is the hardest part. People tell me that we don't look good together fuck those people it don't matter and never will. I promise that i will stop with being obsessive. i have lost my appetite. i feel sick and cant bring myself to sing... strange!! (L) Its up to you (still waiting) xxx