Mission

Don't you think that sometimes you are exactly who you are for a reason? That nobody in this world should try and change you or for that matter even want to. Nobody is perfect of course. Why is it that all of my waking hours i feel i should be bettering myself to become a better person and on the other hand i wish people would just accept me for me! Sometimes i want change. I want to feel completely at ease and normal and happy, but the truth is life doesn't and never has worked that way. I want to stop hating people, but that is just me. I don't really hate i just you know dislike, a lot for that slight period of time. Afterwards of course i am fine and rather resent myself. There is a dull aching pain in my chest, it feels quite heavy and all i can think is, i have so fucking much to do, so many things to think of, so many events coming up. Nothing takes these things of my mind. I work for the money, I go to college to please and to hopefully get a good job to earn money. But the truth be told i don't want to any more.

BlackPool Shots

Tired

Today this household has been manic to say the least and now we prepare for more guests. My nails are painted ready for Halloween :-) let the parties begin!
Sitting here watching spider man, lovely family evening. Steven's of to a party, lucky him. (in the dark) looking forward to work tomorrow. xxx

Music, Music, Music

Half term
Ace Friends
Lack of money
Looking for something
Officially happy
With people i love
Extra original
Even in winter
Never awake.

Humans

Today has been okay Human Biology was actually really good Steven's is ill i think and lots of work needs doing. I went on a bike ride tonight and i also got an electric shock my bad :-) night night xx

;-)

Yesterday was fun i did basically all day apart from a spot of shopping then went to Tin Tin's with Steven's family lol it was really nice then went to Steven's afterwards to talk and so on it was nice just the two of us again considering i actually haven't seen him in ages :-) Now currently trying to sort out college essays/books/equipment - /life! Working some crazy ass hours this week :-) (L) speak soon xx

The 17th

Haven't blogged in a while and now that i have some time off i can let you know what has been going on recently/ the whole of summer. Started College finding it actually quite hard quite boring quite lonely and generally shit! So much for a new start i basically hate it. In other news today is Jessica's 14th birthday and she has been so excited, so yes massive party tonight a chance to get whats that, pissed? oh yeah that's the one. Steven has also moved in to the new house words cannot express how thrilled i am yay! Nothing much has happened since you yes :-) xx

Yes!! off to spain in less than 6 hours, is it really worth going to sleep?
See y'all when i get back!! xxx

A touch of exceptional

I literally haven blogged in a while only because i haven't had any energy, being ill sucks! Everything is Rosy at the minute, just working lots... pay day tomorrow :-) I totally cannot wait! This is the week leading up to the holiday, which i am very excited about, i still need to pack my bag. oops! I love it, i think that i have way too many cloths at the minute. Parties by the pool, that's what i am looking forward too :-) Sweet, post you later xxxx

It's true :-)

Now that i have a moment to myself i can gladly make a blog. Yesterday i have no idea what i did? pretty much just did nothing i think. Today we went to Eleanor's sports day where she came second in the running race :) We were glad the weather was okay for the morning. Nan and Steve came to see her even though Steve has had a hip replacement. We went back to their house and had a lovely dinner yummy, eggy bread :-) Nicer than it sounds honest. We finished there around 2ish after reminiscing old school memories :-) i like it! I am really looking forward to tomorrow, a day with the girls :P SWEET!!

To do list:

• Enjoy time of in the summer.
• Have more time with the girls.
• Get birthday presents.
• Get a camera.
• Get results.
• Have my first day at college.
• Fall in love.