emotional

Emotions are stronger than ever today. I feel i have made some of the worst decisions of my life. Being laughed at is my worst fear and i can't let it go. So here's what went down. Last night i was on msn to a keen boy who goes by the name of Allan myatt, he stayed on till two in the morning telling be how he felt about be, so he likes me, i let him down gently!
Mean while i was also on msn to Kim when i received a sweet message from someone that reads 'how come you ain't come', there was a party but i couldn't get a lift because my mom was working and i didn't wan't to sleep at a lads house, not yet anyway! i told him and he sent back
'i miss you :(' so shocked i asked kim what to do and so i put... awww that's sweet, you sure you aint drunk' his reply 'i don't have to be drunk to be sweet to you' i was so emotional at this point, love is in the air kinda thing!! :) i text back 'awww thanks babe i really appreciate that' i was on a all time high telling kim how i felt about it all then.. he said 'babe, what is all that about' i zoomed back down to earth like a rocket!! i needed help and so kim helped and so i put
'awkward boy' trying to feel good about it all
and kim said will he get the hint and ohhh yes he did, he put
'duz this mean that you like me' i froze on the spot needing help not knowing what to put, i wanted to say yes but felt is was the wrong time, what him being pissed!! lol!...
so i put...
'i just dont think we are close enough to say anything like that at the minute' he then put 'mmm... so what are you up to?' i said 'msn the usual, you?' he said 'sanding around talking to steven and connor' so i then put 'so anything been going on then ey? has connor done anything with kelly yet lol? x' he said 'nah nothing much so who else you talking?' so i put thinking that he would open up to me if he knew i we're alone so put 'just you now no one is on msn!' then he put 'awww ill keep talking to you' and i put 'thank you i have a shit cold how is the man flu??' him a bit shit so a cold that's weak' then i put 'gonna go to bed now enjoy the rest of your night/morning' ' ok night x' i said 'night' and it was over like that.

Then today...

over msn to Kelly i was told that my x is madly in love with me and i dint know what to do... and when he was pissed he made a comment on my boobs... again!! fuck it is fucked!!

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