Today i decided that i am much more religious than i first though!
SEVEN DEADLY SINS...
1,Lust
2,Gluttony
3,Greed
4, Sloth
5, Wrath
6, Envy
7, Pride

After looking on all parts of life i have decided that i will pretty much live by these rules and as i would say 'it is against the bible' lmao. I am truly happy for everyone, even if it doesn't include me, lol!!

I am finding it hard to believe some peoples attitude. The beginning of the year people told me that they envy some people, but they still go out partying with them till stupid times in the morning, i mean seriously you are starting to piss me off something rotten... you either like them or you don't!!

He's not worth it... soon turns to... bless him... i am sorry if i seem harsh but please...

i official HATE bitching and anyone who tries to do so... in the future don't feel upset if i tell you to shut the fuck up it is because i have had enough.

You always say 'you got a problem say it to my face as i will do the same' but the thing is you never do. i wouldn't be surprised if you did that to me. Talked about me behind my back. As these tears well in my eyes i try to think of the good times we once had! PLEASE don't have those silly nods of the head know one except you and one other person knows about!

I just want a little help to sort all this shit out... oh and next time count me in! xoxo

Had a real fast day today... i missed the times where we all had Innocent fun. Where did those days go?? the days where the furthest you went in a relationship was to hug or to hold hands!! The days when you didn't know how to use make-up and your image didn't matter! the time when you looked at boys and thought 'ewww... blow your nose' or even the times when you looked at the people in the older years and said one day i want to have the knowledge you do!
playing badminton with the lads and the Lady's today was great... just had to get our heads in the game and as always they beat us... we didn't have to do that we just came together to have fun. I LOVE these times.then came home with a storming headache... never mind i got all dressed up to go to youth club (thinking that the lads were going) and because i fancy a change, no cardie thank god!! in the end the lads didn't go, damn it, always the way :D i gotta go now don't feel to good grrr...

yes please kim... how did you get it??

really pissed off everytime i go to write a fucking blog my computer breaks!!

Busy days

Dam it... every time i come to write this i have so much to write i don't know where to start. So as always behind on coursework... don't worry i am getting there, small note to self; fuck having a social life, i needs to get done! any how not sure if i mentioned going to the cinema with the lovely josh on Friday had a really good time, lots of laughs is just what i needed to lighten the mood. thank you Jessica for being a joker and bringing up the past (a slight hint of sarcasm in my voice) bless her... i had a really cute day yesterday with the gorgeous Kim Yau... yet again more laughs, my first huge laughing fit in a long time. another note to self: don't ever dive over the bed again!! lmao... thank you also Kim for doing my hair and make-up i loved them lots and the whole new dress thing arr... totally broke now and need money... or even better a job! It was also the beautiful vanessa's birthday today 'happy 15 bitrthday babe' hope you had a good day love x

wow what a weekend fun packed so much shit happened and my life is falling in to place for yet another time. i have given up on all lads and yes even the one i like the most. finding out that he likes someone else is hard however getting over it is harder.

So i went away this weekend that's why there have been no blogs, i was like living back in the stone age... lol lots of mud to also like living on a farm.
Lots of different activities rock climbing, zip line, challenge zone, team games. fun fun fun. stayed up to see it in to valentines day on Friday, then made our way to our room and stayed up until 2.30 i the morning. many giggly girls. i woke at 7.15 for a bloody shower, my god it was cold! we then did most of the activity's as listed above came back to watch some films. Becky shared a blanket with Joshua and Vanessa. cheesy i know! then all the older boys and girls stayed up to play dares. that is a dangerous game not recommended. Mexican tongue wave is rank!! and other stuff that was funny... watching Lewis and josh suck the sock and josh practically get off with Kelly and Jade... you know how i feel...that was the highlight of my weekend lol!! i was kissed on the check by josh and licked up the face my Steven ewww... anyhow we did some other stuff on the Sunday went in a cave under ground nearly died like after having a panic attack!! all is good i have missed everyone and am left heartbroken after certain events that have happened learning to let go i harder said than done... feel free to ask what happened. it isn't really a big thing... well it is to me... HELP!!

Fork

Do you know what fork is a funny word fork, fork, fork it is one of them word that if you say it over and over you begin to think 'is that even a word' then double guessing yourself. i hate that in life all the double guessing people do. what's the point? go with your first decision and get over it! I am fed up of all the depressed people talking shit out of the people who only want to be happy. GET OVER YOURSELF!! you have a roof over your head clothes on your back people around you that love you so what is the big deal... hell i know someone who has cancer my age and told that she is a living time bomb now that is sad and some people have the cheek to turn round and say 'i hate myself' worse thing could happen... and you got to remember that shit happens but sometimes you just gotta get on with it... take it with a pinch of salt and some how with a air of grace about you. Don't let people put you down... live life for yourself and to the full. You time is thanked ...x

Normal Fridays

Dramatic day in becky's eyes!!

snow like never before, fainted in class in front of everyone, like yeah
as a good friend once said 'shit happens' lmao thanks you so much nessa
help me get through it i love you loads for that xoxo
and thank you kim for trying to be there and asking how i am i also love you xox

Snow, Snow, dont you just love it!!

lazy days have hit hard on the hilly household as most are not dressed and all sitting around drinking hot drinks and watching movies!! woop...

I woke to a phone call at about 8 ish, from the lovely nessa. 'is school on today, everyone wants to know' first thoughts "we must have snow" lol. I was told by a laughing ness to look outside and there was the snow coming down hard and sticking...

Boy Situation... Stable
Friend situations... Better than ever
And as for Family... The same as ever...

Well, must dash... its time for another film in the hilly house xoxo

Thank You ..x

Today has been a blissful!! calm and relaxed. I have also learned that facing you fears is a part of life, so do if now rather than later. There is no point working yourself up over nothing! I really do love everyone right now. Second chances are so important. Which is why i apologies to everyone i have ever hurt. Please forgive me :) Thank you everyone for being there. This has been the most important and memorable weekend ever. I now know who i am, i knew i had to find myself and i have that is what was missing.

Thank You ..x