Good Times

Times!! i have had an amazing time in London, thank you so much for having me babe i love you and am going to miss you babe.. no tears this time!

I would like to dedicate this blog to my wonderful grandad who died 8 years ago today. I would like to say that i never knew you. I know more now than i did then, and feel that you were the same as my dad... apart from being a big pushover... he had a big heart and there is plenty of space for everyone in it. I remember the time when you played a trick on me and i locked myself in the bathroom hateful and i felt embarrassed and every one found it funny... accept me... i am sorry because now i look back and laugh and i wish that i could look back and laugh with you but i can't. It hurts me so bad i just want you close by because i never shed a single tear when you passed away, i thought you would come back with a grin on your face and offer everyone a free ice-cream, but you never did and as the years have passed us by everything has gone wrong... the family is apart, selfish so self absorbed i sometimes think if you were still here that none of this would ever had happened but i wasn't meant to be, you went so quickly and so young i don't think i could cope but i always say that we should not fear death.. it is the only certain thing in life from the moment we were all born, right??! I hope to god that you are proud of me and of the decisions that i make in life because you are not around to stand on your own to feet and speak for yourself, i just don't want people to feed me a false image of what you would be like... please just let me make you proud and the rest of the family because i try my best i really do... please take care of us all and Megan's grandad, who has recently passed away, so wherever you are make sure he is okay

love you lots grandad ice-cream, miss you loads xxxx